The Sounds and the Circles
Butterfly Song
I’ve been wasting my air, breathing clouds of people. Forgetting to send you my butterfly song. Pretending that I am a cement brick of the pavement, when you, my autumn leaves, are where I should belong.
I miss catching the waves dancing on the starlight, and humming the tune of a bird on the breeze. I just need a moment to sit and behold the spirits alive in that old linden tree.
Oh, I’ve waited enough and I’ve done what they’ve told me. I’ve wrestled against what I know to be wrong. But in truth, to be free, I know I must wander from there…because all that is real is the butterfly’s song.
The Sounds and the Circles
Bird in the sky, hovering, whistling. Night’s creeping by as she lowers her wings. When suddenly the Lord appears. He untangles all her fears, with the wind.
Encircled flight, oh, she’s alive, the wind is breathing high. But I sit alone as the bird is flying by. I’m crying ’cause the Lord has gone. I’ve forgotten how to sing Her song, without the wind. And down the by weeping willow tree, it comes to me, singing…
God, You won’t see the back of me, I’m here now, sorry for being away for so long. I’ve been riding on the wings of another eagle, that’s been leading me to wrong. I wanna know the sounds and the circles of Your love, and let them lead me to the places above.
God, make me yours, let me fly on your wings. Let me be like the stillness of the trees and sway with ease, joyfully shedding my leaves, when the storm comes.
And You won’t see me on that dark road again, and You won’t see me without my friends, and You won’t see me on the way down, and You won’t see me without Your crown.
God you won’t see the back of me, I’m here now, sorry for being away for so long. I’ve been riding on the wings of another eagle, who’s been leading me to wrong. I wanna know the sounds and the circles of your love, and let them lead me to the places above.
God, You won’t see the back of me, I’m Yours now, thank you for leading me down that road. ‘Cause I’d never have known the way to feel You, if I hadn’t carried that load…and found a peace just on my own, standing strong upon that stone. Now I’ll never be alone. Thank you for bringing me home.
Waiting for Faith
Waiting again to find my faith stretched out in front of me. Wanting to wish me on my way, running into wilderness willingly. Why must it seem like a fight to be for others, in this life, a follower of the light?
Shrouded in mists and shallow sights I’m just imagining that I can see the sun. Searching for what I may not find, within the puzzle of what is said and what is done. Is it wise to be a follower, when I could fall so far, and not even know who You are?
I always fall back to You. Even though I always fall. You only have to call my name, and I believe in You again.
Waiting again to find my faith challenging me to speak up, though I know not what to say in protection of the powerless and the meek. I want to be an angel and work through all my fears, if God would only make me His.
But what shall I do at the Devil’s approach? Shall I keep my calm and follow every word You spoke? But what if he catches me off guard, and unprepared I stumble into enemy’s arms? Well, heaven isn’t going anywhere, so you and I can dare to believe it’s there for us.
I always fall back to You. Even though I always fall. You only have to call my name, and I believe in You again. And I fall to my knees again, and again, and again.
Next Time
Spending all this time just getting to know myself. Using all this time that I asked you for. And wasting it. Wasting it.
You were all that I asked my God for, but I wouldn’t even say His name to you. Maybe next time, next time, that’s all I’ll do.
I’ll love enough, love’s always enough for me. I’ll be awake, awake, awake, now you’re away from me.
Living all my days just hour by hour, trying to let in forces beyond my power, to see what the spirits say to me today.
So I’ll keep the love you gave and love like you. I’ll race with beating hearts until I’m through. ‘Cause next time I’ll know how to recognise you.
So pick me up and I will fly, next time. Free me from every cage and I will survive.
You said I was a rose. I’m gonna be a rose again. You said God never knows. But I’ll bet He knows what, where and when.
I’m emptying my heart into this tune. Singing in the mornings, nights and afternoons. And guess what? Somehow, now there’s more room.
Darlin’, Darlin’
Darlin’, darlin’, I just spoke to you. It had been a while. So many things I’ve said, I’m surprised you’ve still got your smile. As I’m sitting beneath the trees, smelling the grass as it perfumes my feet, I blow at a sweet dandelion.
Darlin’, darlin’, I just spoke to you. You made me breathe. Me tree, that’s you. You set me down on my feet through the whirlwind I’m dancing in. As I’m sitting beneath the trees, folded in the safe embrace of gravity, the summer leaves have been crying.
Darlin’, darlin’, I just spoke to you, and I feel good. I feel much better now. I think you slow me down. As we’re lying beneath the trees, I hear your voice and it puts me at ease. The sun is strong, no denying, although the summer leaves have been crying…I blow at a sweet dandelion.
You are the closest person that I have, who holds me in his arms like God would. You’ve always understood. And should life be fair, there won’t be anybody else’s head laid next to mine, for a very, very long lifetime.
Jealousy
Jealousy is a breeze that I fall into like jeans on Mondays. A melting ray, from far away, a melancholy melody from a fire, on the inside. So at ease, does as he pleases, watch and see – he’ll make a fool of me, if he gets his way. But ooh, I’d like to see him in the face of heaven’s bright lights.
Purple sun, he’s the one. All these feelings have begun to take over me. What would I do, if we were through? Oh, but I never want to get to that day. And anyway, all the signs and all the people who know what’s right, see that it’s you and I, for the real thing. So we are gonna make it to face of heaven’s bright lights.
Ooh, I love you. I’m sorry I’m this way. Ooh, I need you. No matter what I say. Ooh, I love you the way you are. And jealousy’s just a dream that I’ll shake off with my jeans on Mondays.
Divine Something Else
Love is moving on and leaving me. Love is setting off to leave me free. Love is only just a spec in the sky. Love is remembering how to fly.
My angel takes his coat and flies away. Only One could have written our goodbyes today. Love is only just a summer breeze. I would never wish his heart to freeze.
Alleluia!
Love is glazing from the horizon. Every blessing travels with this sung song. Love has only what he needs to feel. The rest of life is yet to be revealed.
Laid by a tonic in the evening sun, I let love go because the web is spun. And divine something wouldn’t let him run…if divine something else wasn’t there, somehow simmering within the air, holding face in the fresh winter grey, piecing pieces in among the array of stars all gathering to wish love on. Sunlight fathoms now the moonlight’s gone.
Alleluia!
Walls
Who am I, without my old thoughts? Who am I, if I haven’t got my walls? You want to melt them down. But slip on the sand, and you’ll send me to sea. You and your love are dangerous to me.
Over the years, my walls have been my friends. They’ve hardened into snow and they don’t want to go. You want me to be vulnerable. You melt me away and the Spirit shines through. You and your love are good for me.
Love is changing me, it’s setting my spirit free. But who will I be if I surrender this part of me? Love is changing me, I’m facing all my fears. I wonder where we’ll be, as we travel through the years.
What if I’ve always been worth a whole lot more than I thought? And what if I’ve always been wrong in thinking that I had to be so strong? You are my chance. Lord, I only want to let the Spirit dance.
Love is changing me, it’s setting my spirit free. But who will I be if I surrender this part of me? Love is changing me, I’m facing all my fears. I wonder where we’ll be, as we travel through the years. Love is changing me, I’m facing all my fears. So take good care of me for many, many years.
Blue Lullaby
Honey, I’m down, and I’m tired of waiting for you to come home at night. ‘Cause I’m all by myself and I feel so lonesome, and I wish you’d come and shine your light.
Oh, honey, I’m down, and I’m tired of hoping that you’d be the one at my door. And I wish you’d believe, believe me when I tell you, that my heart is aching for yours.
Ooh, won’t you see, ooh, what you mean to me? Ooh, and I wish you’d believe me, ’cause I think I’d do anything.
But you’re always down by the river. Always down by the river. Always down by the river, and I wish you’d come home sometimes.
What do you need, who d’you need me to be? ‘Cause our symmetry’s gone straight into a curve. And anything’s real if you’re living in a dream, so I’m praying for some other world. I’m praying for some, praying for some, praying for some other world.
Ooh, won’t you see, ooh, what you mean to me? Ooh, and I wish you’d believe me, ’cause I really think I’d do anything.
But you’re always down by the river. Always down by the river. Always down by the river, and I wish you’d come home sometimes.
Honey, I’m down and I’m tired of waiting for you to come home at night. So, meet me by the river and sing me a sweet song. ‘Cause I miss your old blue lullabies. ‘Cause I miss your old blue, miss your old blue, miss your old blue lullabies. And I wish you’d come and hold me tight.
Rise and Shine
Rise and shine, little darling. Live in me. We are waiting and hoping for you. Rise and shine, tiny baby, come true, for wonderful things await you.
Come and stay, little angel. Be our love. Be the centre of all we hold dear. Do not fear, my little one, we’re here with you, praying for all your dreams to come true.
Every atom you we’ve created, with every fibre of love in our bones. Come and stay, and make us your home. You’ll never be alone.
Rise and shine, little darling, and stay forever. For you’re everything we want and more. Whoever you are, we’ll adore you. So, welcome. Welcome into life.
All music and lyrics © Copyright Caitlin Mayall 2021
Caitlin Mayall 